On March 24th I had the bankart procedure done to my right shoulder. Let's just say that this has been a pain in my ass. For the past eight and a half weeks it's been like I have been stuck in a worm hole living each day over and over again. Besides the pain that I have been enduring, I have been battling depression. I don't know if who ever is reading this has ever had to deal with depression but it is unbearable at times.
I have my good days and I have my bad one's. The bad day's, I don't feel like getting out of bed and let's just say I don't feel self worth. I wouldn't have the thought's of offing myself but I felt a time's that my wife and kids were better off with out me. For the past 5 weeks I have been getting help with my battle. Since then, I see myself and my life in a whole new way. I recently started my physical therapy for my shoulder and I'm progressing very well with that.
In about two weeks I am able to return to work and start contributing in the financial side of things. I am very proud to say I'm getting help with my personal demons. The first part of dealing with this is acceptance and I accept what my problems are. To anyone who reads this and judges me, just think, at least I'm not afraid to get help.
you make me so proud to call you my husband. Though the last 7 months have had a lot of strain, it is amazing to see how much growth and beauty have come out it. You are one amazing person...Addison and Baylor think so too!!!
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